I once played as a female avatar on another gameworld. I remember really getting into character and enjoying wearing some outfits I couldn't dare try as a man.
For a time, I really began to like being in the skin of this beautiful person. I studied how women speak in the real world and how they interact with one another, (which in some ways is far more intimate in how men interact with one another) But no matter how much i tried to hide behind an 'accent' or fluffy persona, it was still me all over. People seemed to like me and i felt so much more comfortable than my own real life 'Male' persona.
I never would of thought of myself in drag, well, at least up until that time. This was me, with the volume turned up.
I made friends both male and female through this 'Character'
(Because after all, thats what she was for me.)
But the day came when I finally had to come clean and reveal that I am actually a male, and that no matter what happened, it was still me. My friends were horrified, they felt betrayed.
Male friends were stunned into disbelief. Everyone was convinced that I was 'Christine' a free spirited girl that just loved hanging out at virtual niteclubs with her friends.
They ripped into me, called me everything that was under the sun, because after all, I deserved it. I wasn't honest with them to begin with. I entered their inner 'female' circle and listened to their intimate stories.
Some needed time to 'think about it' in resuming their friendship with me.
I eventually deleted my character and quit the game.
That was the first and last time I had ever decieved anyone in a game world, so I know first hand the effects it can have on people.
If you are a male intending to play as a female and want to form friendships, just remember, honesty comes first.
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CHRISTINE..Female Avatar
